My Thank You Letter to 2020

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Dear 2020,

• The way you made me feel most was…in the end, taken care of. You made me slow down and take measure of myself and those around me.
• Our biggest struggle together was…me learning to slow down and to stop struggling against retaining what no longer served me.
• I really wish that…I had learned the lesson sooner.
• What I struggled with the most is…acceptance that things will never be how I pictured them to be. And that’s okay.
• What I may miss the most is…the ability to work and volunteer. But I have managed to find other ways, more peaceful ways, of being a help to the Universe.
• I’m so angry that you…caused so many people financial hardship. However, hopefully, the lesson learned is to take nothing for granted and always be prepared.
• And yet I’m thankful that…I survived. I struggled but I survived.
• I never wanted…to become disabled. But now that I am I’ve learned what I should have been doing all along — self-care.
• Sometimes I think about…what it would be like right now for me if I were still in healthcare. More than likely being high risk and working with others who are high risk I could very well have died by now. So thank you for sparing my life.
• What I learned from you is…be careful what you wish for.
• I wish to forgive you for…all of the chaos and confusion that we humans intentionally inflicted. But really, I don’t blame you. You don’t deserve all of the hatred that has been bestowed upon you. 99% of what happened is totally on us.
• Now that you are leaving, I feel…nervous, anxious, happy, relieved.
• What I’m happy to say goodbye to is…the pressure of living up to ridiculous and unattainable standards of what society dictates.
• After I write this letter, I am making the conscious choice to…not live a black and white life and try to find peace somewhere in the middle.