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*SPARKED* by Chandrayan Gupta’s
What it’s Like to be Passively Suicidal
I’ve read Chandrayan’s article a few times now. I can’t get my brain to say anything but “wow”. So much of what he said radiated with me that I didn’t want to come across as an attention whore and comment all over his article. I decided to write my own piece about the subject and how his article put so many things into clarity for me. Right off the bat –
“I was passively suicidal for years before I even learned what the term meant.”
I couldn’t even say me too thanks to the #metoo movement without it sounding contrite. But I too have been passively suicidal for years now. I’ve stopped eating right and letting my health go down the tube with the Tidy Bowl Man. I now have double-digit doctors as well as prescriptions. And my physical health isn’t the only thing I’ve let slide. Just the most obvious one.
“It means when you want to die by suicide, but not enough to actually do anything about it. You want to die, yes, and if an opportunity presented itself, you’d grab it with both hands. But if left to your own devices, you wouldn’t do anything to give effect to your ideations.”
