When You Have 31 Unfinished Drafts

But have nothing to write about

“But there’s nothing to eat in here!” (image)

Or how about…

“I can’t find anything to wear!” (image)

This is the mood I’m in today and frankly, I don’t know why. I have no real reason to be in a “mood” but here I am.

I mean look; I have a roof over my head, food in my gut, some cash in the bank, and clothes on my back. Me and my family as well as friends all woke up this morning to take our next breath. That’s a lot more than a lot of other people could say for themselves.

I should be grateful. And I am.

Yet….

But still….

Am I restless or am I burned out? It honestly feels like some of both. Doesn’t that seem weird to you? It seems weird to me.

To me, restless is you’ve got energy to burn but nowhere to direct it. That’s when I used to jump in my car and take a long drive. Breathe deep and enjoy the peace as well as the scenery.

Burned out is when I would turn off everything except the idiot box and just tune the world out while I would just be.

My insides are restless for sure. It’s an actual physical sensation that I am familiar with. Maybe the burnout isn’t really burnout but more along the lines of… overly tired? I could get up and go if I had to but since I don’t have to I don’t wanna.

My get up and go got up and went.

Hopefully, it will be back soon as I have a trying day ahead of me tomorrow.

Dayum. NOW I know what this is. ANXIETY.

To quote Penny from The Big Bang Theory, “Well, crap on a cracker.”

You’d think I’d know by now how to recognize anxiety. I mean, we share a pillow every night for criminy sake.

In the morning a car will come and pick me up and schlep me to my dentist. As you may recall, I had surgery that went terribly wrong back at the end of March. At that time the anesthesiologist had to intubate me and when he did, he managed to knock out all of my teeth on the upper left side. They are going to numb me up and begin to dig out of my gums the remnants of my teeth.

Yes, he broke them all off at the gum line.

To say that this is going to such would be a gross understatement. Add that to the Dad mixture and is it any wonder that today I just don’t want to be bothered?

Here’s the lowdown from March’s fiasco.

Screw The Young and the Restless.

Here’s the lowdown on Dad and his multiple strokes of late.

They Thought Dad Had A Stroke